Wednesday, 13 May 2020
I couldn't outrun the fear
Thirty-four, thirty-five, thirty-six strokes per minute... it wasn't working. The rowing machine remained implacable and emotionless. I couldn't outrow the fear.
The doctor was having none of it.
"You're heart is beating too fast."
Confirmed shortly thereafter by the triage nurse at the hospital where I was sent.
Too much uncertainty? Too much news? Or my husband's 1st April biopsy for prostate cancer that was no April Fool's.
We were far from family when I was diagnosed with cancer in France.
Cancer, why can't you just stay the #$% away from my family?And, to present during yet another time of family distance...cruel.